If you ask why am I not yet on air here right now? It's because the so called Dedicated connection to all things Internet is not all that Dedicated or secure. It just might and I say might be due to nearby neighbors who don't have tapping into the flow. Reason I say this? When they are not home or asleep the flow is much faster, fewer glitches and a better stream, both down as well as up. When they are home, or awake things slow down, which is why I try to time the hours on air as well as online to when the neighbors are as said awake and or home, such as school hours, weekdays during overnight hours, and as well as weekends while they are at Church. Makes one wonder why the heck I'm still here at all. I said in April last year after I had to give up going to NAB because of PoohBear, and subsequently left me, that if I moved here to western Idaho from Wyoming that I didn't want to be kicking myself in the arse in a year. Guess what I'm not only kicking myself in the arse, I'm also beating myself up. Sure its warmer here weather wise, but everything else is much colder, the supposedly advancement that was sold to us as an organization as well as myself isn't that advanced. Sure Evanston Wyoming wasn't and isn't a hot bed of intelligence or advanced technology , however experts are an hour even in the worse weather away. Salt Lake City, as well as Provo, which has the title of the Silicon Valley of the Mountains. Every one said ah but Idaho's taxes are so much lower, really? Then why am I paying through the stratosphere in rent? Sure I did have a section 8 over there which gave me some wiggle room, but because I left much sooner than I wanted to, due to promises made by Cable-One that I forgot to give notice I was moving and as such , lost the section 8. So now have to pay full rent price. All this said I relocated for a stupid reason to renew my licenses, and two for PoohBear. PoohBear needs some serious mental reconditioning. She blames everyone for her screw ups. Sure I could do that, and I'd be justified in doing so, but when I screw up, I admit it, apologize to anyone I offended and move on. Example and its another part of this here.
Last October I had a oppurtunity to move in with a slightly older woman down in Hollister Idaho. The $200.00 a month with utilities was a no brainer. But Shelly says don't do it. But I still had every intention to doing so, especially when the local fuzz showed up, when Shelly called em and said she was locked in my bathroom. Really? In reality Shelly was 2500 miles away in Florida, then she says the neighbors caused it. Really, the neighbors didn't care. Then a gal from back east somewhere named Tracy was coming out, Shelly was all in a uproar, but hey I needed the second income to maintain operations, and two the troubles in the neighborhood was getting a bit much. Then Friday eve I go to the Depot Grill, learn from one of our Sister Wolvez that PoohBear had texted her over Facebook, in a rather threatening manner. Most of the time I'd let this go, but I have heard this from way too many people, especially women whom PoohBear considers a threat to our domestic tranquility. If her and I are to stay together, after April, headed to a June/July marriage, its going to depend on 4 things, continued dues to the WolfPack, two; serious counseling to get over some very serious mental trauma , and cure this terrible lack of self worth and self confidence. Heck just overnight last night her texts and such , if I showed those to authorities which I have kept, they'd lock her up for attempted suicide or harm to herself and others, the things I have seen her write, whew, let's call it felony city. But I stay with her because she has stayed loyal to me, and the WolfPack, and because I love her, if I didn't I would have ejected from this burning aircraft months ago. But to be safe I am looking for somewhere that I, and I alone can afford. That way if I have to bail, I can do so and still keep a roof over my head.
Any flyte will see ya'll at 13:00 after Church today on, www.spreaker.com/ayrewolf KTOW FM 105.7